I know I’m lucky I’ve never nicked a vein.
How much longer will this luck hold out?
Maybe I’m relying too much on luck and
not enough on common sense.
Cigarettes and coffee have destroyed fewer
lives than this.
I’ve lost myself within the sands of time.
How could I not have seen this happening?
How could I have broken down this far without
the understanding what was going on.
I need something to remind me of happier times.
I need something to remind me that there is more
out there waiting for me.
I can’t accept that this is all there is for me.
Close my eyes and take me away.
let serenity sink in and pull me beneath the waves
of sleep.
Through the tides I am able to slumber.
Nothing hurts here. Nothing matters here.
All I want is to be free.
Alive in the city of sex and sin.
Cigarettes and smoke.
Silver fold and lap dances too.
A higher being is nowhere to be seen.
The greed drips out and the chemicals soaked in.
The days of virgins in white dresses, dreams and
wishes are now a thing of the past.
Faith has been turned into a vicious cycle of abuse.
You’ve tainted one holy writings to fill your own needs
and further your careers.
Manipulating texts of love into ones of pain and sorrow.
Corpses laying dismembered on the ground, the blood
seeping through the land; corrupting the the Earth with
the duel nature of man.
I want to erase the words I’ve written,
silence the words I’ve spoken
and take back all my shameful actions.
I can’t make things right, but I can try.
In my heart I know I have done good and
I have done evil.
I have to accept all the comes from me and
stop living in fear.